Monday Monday

Well today went brilliantly food wise - I stuck to the plan and although tired - right now I am feeling pretty good.

The other things on the to do list weren't so great though.

I didn't get through 3 lt of water and I didn't make the few phone calls that I needed to.

I did go to the gym - I did a bodypump class because I couldn't make my braing think about what I needed to do.

Right now I need to focus on getting organised for tomorrow - but first I need to go and eat. I'm hungry!

Embarking...

Well tomorrow I embark on the operation lose 10kg project.

I'm a bit pissed off that due to extenuating circumstances with Harris and me just not getting the support I needed this weekend in terms of child free time I now still have a messy cluttered house and hence a messy cluttered headspace.

Harris has been impossible today he wouldn't play on his mat, he wouldn't let us put him down and he did a lot of distressed crying - which makes me stressed. Possibly he is growing or maybe even getting a tooth. It is impossible to know but there is nothing I can do about it except sooth him where I can.

I have drawn up a daily to-do list on my white board to try and help me be organised enough to make this easier. I have planned out dinners for a month in advance - I will still have to think about healthing them up a little bit for me each day but perhaps that is something I can look forward to. It annoys me that this was like second nature to me early last year - I didn't have to think hard about it at all -I just knew what I needed to do and did it. I am sure that I will get back to this point but until I do the head part of it all is hard work.

I did have a good dinner tonight of lamb steaks marinated with a north african spice blend and salad...followed by an apple...Its a good beginning.

Edit....The next morning

The scales are not my friends... How is it possible to stand on a set of scales three times in the space of 5 minutes and for each time the number on the scales to increase so that by the lsat time the scale weight is 1.7kg more than the first time. humpf!

What?

This is one of my favourite pics of Harris and I just had to post it on here!

I am feeling slightly better now both physically in terms of being recovered from the cold I had and emotionally regarding how I feel about getting down to business with getting rid of this extra 10kg.

Yes - the 'before pics' were a bit of a wake up call but I just have to tap away at it slowly and with consistency and I will see results. I know that.

I do have to be more conscious in my thought processes about what I need to do to help myself get there though and that involves me deliberately sitting down each night once Harris is asleep and reflecting on the day, writing in calorie king, perhaps writing in here, and looking over what I need to do the next day. I may also need to think about menu planning a little more - not so much for dinners but more for day time meals. especially lunch.

I find it interesting that on the days I step on the scales and see a number that I like - I am further encouraged to eat well, exercse and stay on track- and on the days when I don't like the number I tend to mope and not want to exercise and eat poorly.

My priority for the weekend though it to get the house al tidy and decluttered so I have have a clear mind to focus over this coming week.

Wake up Call..

I had to take some 'before' pics this afternoon and woah was it a bit of a wake up call. Sometimes whe I look in the mirror I delude myself somewhat about what is really going on.

I have been putting off this whole whittling the weight back down business because I know that it is going to involve hard work and dedication for quite some time.It is most likely also going to involve me rearranging my thinking again - something that took me 3 years to accomplish last time.

Quite honestly I scared about my ability to do it with the added stresses of looking after a small demanding child.
I need to go away and think about all of the things I did last time to get myself in the right head space and to help to make it easier for me to achieve..

Sick me

Well I am very glad that I decided to give it another week before starting back at training with intent because I am sick with some chesty cough thing and I think the boy has it too. Poor baby - hopefully he gets better quicker than me. I am constantly amazed at how quickly these little babies heal up from cuts and scratches.

I don't actually feel all that bad but it is bad enough that I know I probably shouldn't be hitting it too hard in the gym. I may go and do some weights tomorrow morning though.

This morning we went to take the dog for a walk and I was pleasantly surprised to see all the runners out doing the Canberra half marathon. It did make me want to be out there running along too - there is a certain excitelent that goes along with these events.

I have seen a few pics of the girls who competed today on facebook and they all looked great - Well done girls!

Contemplating marathons

It seems that whenever I sit down to post lately Harris inevitably starts to crack it and I have to abandon it to another time!

LAst week when I was running on the treadmill at the gym I was thinking about the fact that the entries to the Melbourne half marathon open on June 1st and I need to make my mind up pretty soon whether or not I am going to attempt this - hey - it has to be easier and less painful than childbirth right! But the logistics of the amount of time I need to dedicate to training are messing with my head presently. I much prefer running outdoors to running indoors on the treadmill, but during the week I would need to do at least two runs - preferably three and I know that these would need to be on the treadmill at the moment and that concept doesn't fill me with joy.

I could get out for a l ong run on the weekend fairly easily I think because I can leave Harris with Mark for up to an hour safely (without him needing to be fed).

I think I will keep contemplating the logistics for another week or so.

I tried for another run on the treadmill yesterday at the gym but I had already been on the bike for 30 minutes and trained legs and when I started to run my legs felt like jelly and it just wasn't happening. So I stuck with walking.

I am trying to shift my focus more towards being in training mode and this week I am going to try and amp it up a little and get to the gym more than once. I do go walking on the days I don't make it to the gym but it's just not the same.

Good luck to those who are competing tomorrow!

Finally made it to the gym!

Woohoo!

I finally made it back to the gym.

I took it a bit easy this morning because I dont cope very well with night feeds and sore legs - getting in and out of bed is hard enough without sore legs added into the equation.

I bit the bullet today and decided to have another go at running to see if my pelvis has improved at all. It seems that it has and I had a great session on the treadmill for 25 mins of 2mins running followed by 2 mins walking.

In even more exciting news - I jumped back on the spin bike for the first time in over a year this morning - expecting it to hurt - I was pleasantly surprised that it didn't hurt too much at all.

The theory was that if I can get on the spin bike for any period of time at all (but hopefully at least 20 mins) when Harris has his morning nap - then if for some reason we don't make it to the gym then at least I have done something!.

Also trained legs this morning.

all in all a good session.

The time gets away

Every day I look at this blog and think - I really ought to write something. And then I dont.

We have been really busy the past two weeks and to be honest - the gym hasn't been high on the priority list.

I thought that today would be the day that I manage to get back in there but it was not to be.

As we were leaving the house this morning I has Harris strapped into the pram, I turned around to pull the door closed and the pram managed to get away from me and rolled down the two front stairs, flipping over onto it's front and landing with Harris facing the concrete.

My poor baby - I thought I had really hurt him and it was all a bit scary. He was screaming - as you can imagine. Initially it looked as though he just had some scratches on his nose and cheek - but I just couldn't be sure if he had hit his head or not so we headed up to the hospital for him to get checked out just in case.

they seem to think he didn't hit his head and sent us home with instructions to watch him closely over the next couple of days.

It was very scary but I know that it is probably the first of many accidents he will have in his life - it is so difficult to watch your baby hurting and know there is nothing you can do about it.

So we will try again for the gym tomorrow.

I am never letting go of the pram handle ever again!

Where's Harris?

I decided that this blog wasn't really the place to talk about Harris and our family life.

This blog was really always about fitness pursuits and thats really how i want it to stay!

I have been writing about other things at my other blog www.primroseandavery.blogspot.com for a while now, so that is where i willl talk about Harris and our family life as well as post any pictures of him.

As for the fitness stuff - not much of that hapenning this week!

End of the week

It's Friday and I am exhausted!

This is what it always feels like when I first get back into training - until my body settles into it and the energy returns.

Having trained all body parts this week I am now sore and achy all over and tomorrow I am having a rest day - although I will probably go for a walk.

This morning I sept until 9:00am after going to sleep last night at 9pm (although that was an interupted 12 hours) - I have realised that this is what I can't do when I am normally working - sleep when I need to sleep.

Despite the extra sleep, tonight I have been on a tiny sugar trawl through the house - I think mainly because I missed a meal today.

Now it is Saturday - how sad that it takes me two days to write a blog post!

The sugar trawl was evident on the scales - but I feel much much better today! Still sore but no longer tired.

Ouchy!

Thing are going great guns this week and I am very pleased.


I did end up with leg DOMS from Tuesday but it wasn't as bad as I anticipated.

I didn' do any training yesterday as Wednesday is a busy day and Harrs had his first vaccinations. He screamed the poor little mite and the proceeded to cry for another 6 hours until he finally fell asleep.

On the cards today is the gym, where I will do shoulders and back as well as 25 min on the Elliptical trainer. I also walk there and back with a 10 min incline wall (read HILL) on the way home.

Planned food:
1 - Oats, protein powder, raspberries
2 - Up and Go Vive post workout
3 - salad of some description
4 - cottage cheese and rice crackers
5 - haven't thought about dinner yet
6 - cottage cheese, yoghurt, raspberries

Weight today: 78.8

Rest

Having a baby reminds me often of how important it is to value rest.

I woke up tired this morning - despite the fact that our night wasn't too bad last night. I also woke up ravenously hungry this morning - despite the fact that I has a yoghurt snack at about 3am this morning.

This afternoon I will try to have a little nap I think. It all depends on Harris.

It is raining here in Canberra today which means no walk for me. Boo Hoo! But I am planning on going to the gym - and I am decidedly nervous about it.
Mainly about how Harris will go in the child care I think.

I did manage to get a walk to the gym after all - the rain has stopped - for now -it is looking very black out over the mountains right now. I needen't have been nervous - the little angel slept the entire time I was in the gym! I really hope that is a trend he keep up!

Food (planned) today:
1 - oats, raspberries, protein powder
post gym session - Up and Go vive (Have you tried these - they are great!)
2 - cottage cheese and rice crackers
3 - spinach and feta frittatas and salad
4 - yoghurt and protein powder
5 - mustard coated chicken and salad
6 - cottage cheese, raspberries, yoghurt

Exercise today:
Legs
Hamstring Curls 3 x 10 x 10kg
Leg press 3 x 12 x 30kg
Squats 1 x 12 x 30kg 2 x 12 x bar only
Stiff legged dead lift 3 x 12 x 12kg
A few other bits and pieces like some wall squats with the fit ball and some lunges. Lunges really hurt my pelvis so I am going to lay off them for a bt I think - until I get more strength.

25 min HIIT on Elliptical
30 min walk inc Hill

Weight today: 79.7

Day 1 nearly done

Day 1 is closing in towards a close and I am happy to report that it has been a good day.

All systems go on great food choices today - especially thanks to Amanda, who decided she didn't want to indulge in a piece of chocolate cake, and so therefore neither did I.

We have had a very lazy, stay at home Easter weekend.

On Friday we went to the Folk Festival here in Canberra, it was Harris's first big day out and we really paid for the change to his routine later that night. He was a very tired grumpy baby.

Saturday and Sunday were spent recovering and getting his routine back on track.

Today, Amanda came over for lunch and a chat, before that we went for a walk around the lake.

Food today:
1 - Oats, raspberries, protein powder
2- cottage cheese, rice crackers
3 - Spinach and feta frittata and salad
4 - french vanilla yoghurt and protein powder
5 - mustard coated chicken and salad
6 - cottage cheese, yoghurt, raspberries

Exercise today:
5km walk

Weight today: 80.2

Fairly relaxing in all.

Today has been fairly easy in making good food decisions, I had a clear head and nothing was stressing me out. I was at home and not tempted by any food out and about.

Tomorrow morning I am going to see about joining the gym - I'm excited!

Tis Time

I think that in my heart I have been waiting until after Easter to get back into the groove and really get on top of the fitness regime again.

As I mentioned, last week Iwent and checked out a local gym and I think that I wll most likely join. Their classes are a bit rubbish (no RPM) but I really only want an elliptical machine and some decent weights equipment.

So I have decided that I will spend this weekend getting my act into gear and putting all of the things in place to make sure I am organised enough to help make things easy.

I have found that I have been slipping back into old eating habits fairly easily when it comes to dinner and breakfast, but it is the middle of the day that is fairly calorie packed. Mainly because I usually find myself out and about over lunch time. I think that id I start going to the gym 3 days per week this will change because This will be about the time I get home from the gym so any oher errands will have to be in the afternoon, after lunch.

So the things that I need to keep at the top of my mind are:

- That it is not 'too hard' to prepare something quick and healthy at home
- That momentum begets more momentum - if I get in and do it, taking things one day at a time, and not stressing about it all too much. the momentum will take off and keep me going.
- That when I don't feel like exercising for whatever reason, I need too just get out and do it - because you can guarentee that in 10 mins time I will be loving it.
- That I need to take one day at a time and not stress about getting to the final outcome but know that by taking the steps on the journey, the final destination will be achieved.

So in sayingg that, my goal for this week is to get into the 70's again, with my scale weight being 79.x by this time next week.

Lack

Lack in general. Of posting , of walking, of eating well. But thats OK because I have been nurturing my mind.

I had my 6 week follow up at the doctor and he basically said that it probably wasn't the best idea to start running again just yet. I should probably give it another 2 months.

he did say I could start back on the bike if I wanted to though - and anything else that is non-impact. Which means I can do weights and strength work if I want to.

So I went to the local gym last week to see if they babysit for babies as small as Harris. Well he charmed them with his cuteness and they said yes - but that if they had lots of kids in there and he was starting to get grizzly that they would have to come and get me in the gym. Thats fine!

I really feel the need to work my muscles and get my herat rate up to a decent level. Hellooo Elliptical trainer! and hill walking on the tready!

I have also been procrastinating about prepping food and the "Work' factor of getting back to all those good habits I had before. It is hard work, constant preparation and organisation and staying on top of things to shift weight. I always thought that if I didn't have to go to work that it would be so much easier. It is easier to find excuses to do things that are more fun that exercise thats for sure!

I am still unsure of the gym and the babysitting. There are alot of what ifs going through my head. - Mostly about Harris acting up and me not being able to get anything done and it being a waste of money.
The babysitting in the gym is only from 9am - 12pm daily so I have a very small window of opportunity on weekdays. Weekends would be OK because I could get Mark to look after Harris for and hour. The other what if I have is the fact that I would have to be super efficient in the gym and not dawdle like I used to. Perhaps I am thinking too hard about it all and I just need to do it and work it all out along the way.

I had a thought yesterday that I really should be making the most of the extra weightloss aid that is breastfeeding. At the moment I am not doing anything extra but I could be seriously making the most of this extra help. Who knows how long I will be able to breastfeed for?

The other interesting thing. I had forgotten just how good Oats, mixed with rasberries and protein shake is.... Mmmnnn tasty!